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So im guna start using this as a diary.

Iapos;ve eaten far too much today and at the time i thought iapos;m fed up of worrying so much, bla bla bla

then 5 mins later i felt awful, now its evening and thinking about what iapos;ve eaten today makes me feel disgusted and for the first time in a long time i really want to purge. Im not sure if anyone else gets strong and week phases with their eating habits but i definatly do and after being weak i feel extremly low thinking about all the weight ive put on, i havent weighed myself so much lately cos i hate admitting the truth and knowing that im further away from my goals, it frustrates me so much and i just want to cry.

I keep dreaming about food, anything and everything to do with it, why does it have to rule my life...

i really really need to get back into my old habits which worked and i did feel happier when i saw the effects of my body wasting away only i hated that everyone seemed to think it was their business. Why cant i just get on with what i want to do.

Iapos;m making a promise to myself that iapos;ll try harder.

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